my future boyfriend must love photography & he must carry his camera around wherever he go (with me)

reason being, he will see what i see and i will too.

our love can only be seen through a lens and i think that is all i ask.

no wait...



except he has to be taller than me, and of course look fatter than me. (i don't want to date someone skinnier looking than i already am(!!!)
except he must know how to drive..no. he must have a car. any car can do.
except he cannot smoke. (but the whole world smokes nowadays) (okok. he must not be a heavy one and obviously not do stuffs beyond that like drugs.)
except he has to trust me like how i will to him. (those who get jealous/emotional fast, seriously what you want?)

-- if i talk any more my expectations will seem higher and i'll sound like i'm so picky. (i'm not) just looking for my partner because the next time i proceed into a relationship, i don't want to get out of it anymore. when i get into a relationship, stupidly enough I will put my everything out there, wear my heart on my sleeves, and obviously you will invest everything to that one person.

what the heck, all i wanted to say was my future boyfriend (or) husband must love photography & carry his camera around wherever he goes. (or he can use mine :B)

okay maybe he should have sleeping disorders as well. he must must must love photography and build a castle full of used and old film and (or) digital cameras.

i don't know who is that, i won't meet him (or her zomg, i'm freaking kidding) soon i know, but i know he's on his way.... in hopes of finding a girl like me too (this is me being positive!!!!)

although i don't believe in love (i really don't) , my above statement proves how i will somehow magically be enchanted and find a way to believe in it again. (Except for a few points i just never listed out) (okay alot of points) (omg i don't have high expectations)(okay may)

dear may,
will you ever get to bed?

oh & yes, my future boyfriend,
must not tell me "i love you" every single day, seriously,don't do that. i'm so sick of that word being thrown around. talk is cheap. you can tell me how much you love me by adding a 'x' behind a text, if you really do mean it, then i know you'll do. just don't say those 3 words.

you can tell me you miss me, but you must mean it.

(oh god) (now i sound like a woman with high expectations) (i don't ok!) (sigh,may)

anyways, dear future boyfriend? i hope you never read this.
who knows, in the courting process you put a spell on me or you changed my view and i'd have to relinquish and disobey some of my points i feel so strongly about.
and then you'd realise, "oh damn. i didn't meet her requirements"
but by that time we are already in a relationship? zomg.

i hope the future you never ever reads this. oh god, before things get pretty ugly in the future,
i will say that everything i say above is subject to be manipulated. yes. (you are genius)

my thoughts are subjective and views can change, i do believe that,
but for now i still believe that love does not exist.

oh god, how did a line of "my future boyfriend must carry a camera around with him wherever he goes" turn into such a long dreadful essay. seriously, if i keep this up, i'd be able to produce a book about it. these are times where sleep and I will never meet.

these are times where my imagination goes abroad and dreams go wild and thought goes real.

oh god, i think nobody should ever read this, if anyone actually read till (like) this far of bullcrap,
wow, am i that interesting?

xxx