I put my hands up to my face,

So hard for me to just embrace the lens.

The moments gone and now I'm dry,

And how the camera can reply.

dear pulletbroof,

hello! i know i just had to come on here, apart from the fact that I miss writing, but also I needed a place to let it all out, just to feel a little better. sorry for using you my dear pb.

How do I explain it, How do I put it to words. A few of my very dear friends are aware of the state I'm in.

It has nothing to do with me but yet it is bothering me.

It is really odd and peculiar and not to mention very surprising on how hypocrisy can get to people. How easily they can turn their backs on a friend. How easily they can word a statement and a totally irrelevant statement to another. In other words, how double standards and how two face can people get.

I know I am not in any position to write about this, but as I said, as far as right now, I do not think it has anything to do with me, but the environment I am swarmed and have to face to every single day, is becoming a little out of hand lately.

I feel...

I feel like I am back in junior school, where children are not yet grown up and have not reach a state of their mind. How children can easily say one thing to another and another to the next, How children can easily unfriend and befriend their so called "friends".

People tell me that this community I'm in is so high school, correction. I never had encounter environment like that when I was in high school. Maybe a little but it never got out of hand. I had never seen things gone like that before. Where are your sanity my friends? Where are the foundation of trust in friendship? These people can not even be entitled as friends. These are like strangers not knowing about each other's true personality, talking about one another, being nice to each other and shooting them when they're not looking.

Come on. Grow up. If only I could, I would preach this. But honestly, there are basically (still) none of them I can truly trust. It might change in the future, but just grow up already. Eighty five person of you are already/or have turned into a legal age, into a adult. Fifteen percent of you have already past that age. Why don't you just be nice to one another?

It's kind of painful as I watch one party shoot one another. And they are not even aware of it. 

The worst part of all is I don't know if it's happening to me, but those are the least of my worries, Even if it's true I rather not know.

Don't get me wrong, the environment and the community of people in my life right now are amazing. They're really nice people when they want to be, I really adore them but I wish they had a little bit of sanity and maturity in them.

But right now I am so thankful I have people I can truly trust and those who I know will forever have my back. I love you my girls. (inc.Bra)

Lots of love,

May