when will you know when you have found your muse?

i don't know how long a muse can stay as one for you, will it be just temporary?
must your muse be the one for you? this is something I don't get. but as it seems to be , I would much rather prefer if the case was subjective.

for me for you, a muse could be just temporary so as long as the person inspires you to do better,
to do things that you would never dared to do, to think outside of the box, to guide you in taking up a challenge you never you could incapacitate yourself.

does a muse have to be the 'one' for you? if you think you met your muse is he your soulmate or your must future husband to be?

for me for you, I don't think so.
for me for you, for all for you and for I to know I might just have a best friend, who is my muse.
he/she would inspire me in so many ways that I would never have imagine myself, and give me hope when all is down.

The more I think about it, the more I don't know what I want. the more I don't want to love. I don't want to put everything on the line and risk it all just for a four letter word.... or would I?

I don't know. I await the day till I find for the answer I am longing for.

though.


I do want kids some day.